Secret diary of a young and clueless overthinker #3

Desperately seeking authenticity + a lot of trying to seem/be/feel 'normal'

As a bonus for paid subscribers (and an exercise in humility and discipline for me) I’m transcribing the notebooks I’ve been keeping since my teens. I’m starting from around when I graduated from university because before that the writing is *too* excruciatingly embarrassing even to be amusing and I can’t bear to share it with you. Yet!

Read past me’s private thoughts as I flail around, searching for love, getting drunk a lot and making almost no discernible progress at ‘building a life’…
Please excuse any noughties-based political incorrectness, and view this is as a historical document.

I am interested to review the internalised misogyny that I know raged through me in my younger years, and of course, to spot all the neurodivergent and alcohol use disorder tells… Ok, disclaimer over! Enjoy : )