Thank you for sharing this. I was diagnosed at 45 just a couple of months ago, and what you write here really rings true for me. I haven't old very many people of my diagnosis yet, and I've made this account (and a related twitter account) anonymous until I've had a little more time to process and understand myself through this new lense (Writing is helping me do that).
"I feel more autistic and like life feels harder and like I'm better off than I was before." 👈 this line captures it so well. 🙌
Thanks for reading (and subscribing 🎉) predisposition. I'm glad my battle to articulate the experience is helping you understand, it's helping me too. Attempting to make sense of the world/my experience through writing is a nice anchor for my consciousness which loves to spiral away from me...
Do you share your writing anywhere or is it just for you? I hope things start to fit into place for you and that when you're ready to let people in on the diagnosis you find some good support. 💜
CBT is a useful tool what would you say to a friend who had been told she or he is using their condition , / diagnosis,/ awareness/ autism as an excuse
And what is it an excuse for.
I love knowing learning and experience the amount of people who are trained in invisible disability and I love being treated like royalty when I ask my needs to be met, and explain why.
It has taken me till now , 64 , today to learn it. But now I can live my life confidently as it is The first birthday I felt no self-pity, and I took myself to Weston super mare for the 5 time since sept 8 th .
I iniated over 30 if not more conversation and every person , couple ,group I approached I fitted into for 10 minutes. That's how much maximum interaction I need before I have to walk on the sand and be carried by God, as in footsteps poem until I know intuitevly what I need next and where to find it.
I have a sense I will never run out of energy, if I continue to put in place boundaries and stop emulating anybody else.
I know getting enough sleep means that I am reset and as long as I do not reactivate any difficulties from day before, which I have usually journalled about or got my wiser self to just say a prayer so I know as long as I am abstinent and sober I can get a better perspective and enjoy the view .
Thanks for writing as I wondered whether you would keep your word and have managed to move to a new environment and share.
If you want a mentor I am available
Russell Brand has written a book about his mentors called how to be help and be helped .
Abraham Hicks videos are also good they both never talk for more than 10 minutes. And Abraham Hicks dialogues .
Also a website called Buildonbelief.org has mindfulness live on line session as well as dual diagnosis recovery groups daily , with interaction connection and a good companion to 12 steps of instead of ...
So coming out of denial and having awareness IS difficult but as you wrote, it is a transition , a phase, and if you have a chance to
Thank you for sharing this. I was diagnosed at 45 just a couple of months ago, and what you write here really rings true for me. I haven't old very many people of my diagnosis yet, and I've made this account (and a related twitter account) anonymous until I've had a little more time to process and understand myself through this new lense (Writing is helping me do that).
"I feel more autistic and like life feels harder and like I'm better off than I was before." 👈 this line captures it so well. 🙌
Thanks for reading (and subscribing 🎉) predisposition. I'm glad my battle to articulate the experience is helping you understand, it's helping me too. Attempting to make sense of the world/my experience through writing is a nice anchor for my consciousness which loves to spiral away from me...
Do you share your writing anywhere or is it just for you? I hope things start to fit into place for you and that when you're ready to let people in on the diagnosis you find some good support. 💜
Thank you, Chelsey. I have been sharing my writing - I'd be honored if you read any of it :) This is my latest post, which I finished just before reading yours here (good timing) - https://predisposition.substack.com/p/the-problem-of-diagnosis-not-believing. I'm trying to post about once a week because the cadence helps me work through things - https://predisposition.substack.com/archive 🙌
CBT is a useful tool what would you say to a friend who had been told she or he is using their condition , / diagnosis,/ awareness/ autism as an excuse
And what is it an excuse for.
I love knowing learning and experience the amount of people who are trained in invisible disability and I love being treated like royalty when I ask my needs to be met, and explain why.
It has taken me till now , 64 , today to learn it. But now I can live my life confidently as it is The first birthday I felt no self-pity, and I took myself to Weston super mare for the 5 time since sept 8 th .
I iniated over 30 if not more conversation and every person , couple ,group I approached I fitted into for 10 minutes. That's how much maximum interaction I need before I have to walk on the sand and be carried by God, as in footsteps poem until I know intuitevly what I need next and where to find it.
I have a sense I will never run out of energy, if I continue to put in place boundaries and stop emulating anybody else.
I know getting enough sleep means that I am reset and as long as I do not reactivate any difficulties from day before, which I have usually journalled about or got my wiser self to just say a prayer so I know as long as I am abstinent and sober I can get a better perspective and enjoy the view .
Thanks for writing as I wondered whether you would keep your word and have managed to move to a new environment and share.
If you want a mentor I am available
Russell Brand has written a book about his mentors called how to be help and be helped .
Abraham Hicks videos are also good they both never talk for more than 10 minutes. And Abraham Hicks dialogues .
Also a website called Buildonbelief.org has mindfulness live on line session as well as dual diagnosis recovery groups daily , with interaction connection and a good companion to 12 steps of instead of ...
So coming out of denial and having awareness IS difficult but as you wrote, it is a transition , a phase, and if you have a chance to