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I Love all you write. I'm so happy for you to be having a baby. I too lost my 1st and 2nd. Then at 37 my 3rd baby, David, was a fighter. I almost lost him twice. So I laid on our couch for 2 months and learned to stop spinning so much, be gentle with myself, put my feet up more and really relax. Please do the same. Sounds to me you have a wonderful life ahead of you. Thats so exciting. Enjoy every moment, they will go by in a blink of an eye. :) Big Hugs

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Oh Chelsey, I adore hearing your world of experiences . ... How everything happens as it divinely should at the divine time of us on earth .. connecting with our land and feeling our roots .

And just being ... I can relate I'm going through a slowing down of self development , self improvement . I like me and want to just be with that and let myself be honoured and cherished. It's been a long journey . 13 yrs of sobriety a road of ups , downs , bends and meanderings. Hurricanes , dark nites , light days and growing love .

40 is a lovely age and a great age to be a mum ! I'm so delighted for u both I could squeal ... In fact I might 🤣

Squeek .

I was thinking of u the other day and how I miss your voice .

So my friend sending my love , keep being you ... Delightful and rich .

Xx Emma 💕🌻🕊️

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Thank you! Isn't peace lovely? After so much turbulence and bewilderment... I guess the baby is going to shake things up again but in quite a different way, at least...

Sending love back xx

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Yes my nervous system is v slowly becoming more tranquil ... the slower life changes one all for the better x

My friend just had a new baby he's a bundle of ❤️

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That's it! Was hard to get used to the peace at first. I mistook it for life being boring.

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Why is it so hard to get used to peace? Maybe because we don`t know how to appreciate it and we feel we are missing out (fomo) or maybe because someone led us to believe that peace was boring... either way, I´m now so happy to embrace it. X

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Yes it's a busy life in main stream society! I was always looking for the next thrill and putting myself in the middle of many things... It seems the divine had other plans for me although now. It's too far the other way for my liking sometimes

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Happy NY, Chelsey. Your pledge for 2023 sound great. I'm aiming for making time, space and quiet so that I can listen to what I might want and leaning into that much more. I hear you very clearly on getting okay with being okay... I think to some extent I'll always feel 'improving' and 'growing' is possible. I'm just at the start of beginning to trust that I'm just fine as I am and that my own ways of doing things might just be fine too. Wishing you well with your pregnancy!

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Thanks E N! I think improving and growing is still possible but I'm up for gentler approaches to it. I want to improve at being kind to myself and others and appreciating my life. I want to improve at accepting the reality of who I am and and the reality of those around me. Etc.

Thanks for reading and be gentle with yourself ❣️

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May your sweet baby be a Taurus? A fine sign I'd say :)

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Gemini, I believe. If they come on the predicted day. Which they usually don't! 22 May is due date 😬😅😍

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TAKE A WEEK ..TWO WEEKS OFF/AWAY .Pushing yourself too a TOTAL MELTDOWN .THIS will take a great deal more time to RECOVER ,This is another REASON WHY SLEEP IS EFFECTING YOU SO MUCH..I HAVE HAD THESE ISSUES .I AM OLDER THAN You .been there had that done this,MY BLOG.http;//mark-kent.webs.com twitter.supersnopper Linkedin.AutismDad MARK

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Total acceptance w/o judgement or evaluation appears as miraculous. Years or a lifetime, where is there to go, really?

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I wish I could write more, Chelsey, I am a bit cut off . I can feel quietly excited for you.

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How about the drawing? Are you able to do that? Sending a hug to you <3

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Thank you for your update, Chelsey.

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6+ years to recover yourself to the point of moving on is pretty quick. Some spend decades and still haven't a clue.

Sharing your journey as you have for the betterment of all is being generous. Thank you for being generous. I've and clearly others have benefitted.

Life with or without having a son or daughter is a privilege and great opportunity. Make the most of it. And recall what Shaw said and "...rejoice in life for its own sake."

Here's the whole quote by George Bernard Shaw:

This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one, the being a force of nature, instead of a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy. I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the whole community, and as long as I live, it is my privilege to do for it whatever I can. I want to be thoroughly used up when I die, for the harder I work, the more I live. I rejoice in life for its own sake. Life is no brief candle to me. It is a sort of splendid torch, which I've got held up for the moment, and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations.

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I suppose it could be seen as quick. It has often felt rather long to me. Especially the me who had given up drinking and wanted A Better Way immediately. I'm defo still neurotic and imperfect but I feel I understand life more and am more able to live it. And without booze throwing extra chaos in my way it's so much more manageable!

I suppose the drinking problem seems resolved at least.

I love the quote. Tho on the fence about wanting to be thoroughly used up when I die. I want it both ways. Meaning and purpose but also LOTS OF REST.

I think you're right, life can be a blessing with or without a kid.

Thanks for taking the time to read and respond. 💜

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...life can be a blessing... That for me sums it up. We can choose life as it is with all the good and bad as we judge it and when we do choose it AS IT IS the experience is that of being blessed.

Being used up includes LOTS OF REST. Give yourself as much as you need even if it measures in years. Given what you've been through I'd be a bit surprised if you don't need a few years to feel really rested again.

Thanks again for sharing so much!

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Give yourself asucj as you need even if it measures in years ... This speaks to me thank u.

I have m.e / CFS and have been housebound for a yr or is it 2 I forget . It has been v painful but is getting easier ... A different way of living but living all the same .

Time for introspection , solace , spirit rest and self.relating away from the hum drum of life out there

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Let me know if you'd like a house visitor some time <3

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I'd love that...

I have to reach stability for that to happen but it can 🐶

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💖💖💖 So very glad you are back!

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Thanks Lari!

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How u feeling?

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Gentle mornings.... Gentle days... The sun is shining with a beautiful haze.

The birds sing sweetly, the traffic hums.

Comfy in bed sitting on my bums :)

I wish you well on this sweet day

Life will happen and we have a gentle say.

When it's harsh out there and gets too much.

Remember the divine in the gentle hush 🤎

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